My god...relationships...ugh why do they have to be so stressfull!!! fuck! somethings wrong with mine...I don't know what it is, and neither does my Bf...but something isn't right...and its stressing me out so bad...I spent most of the day crying today because I'm so scared something might happen...I love him so much! and its not fair! Why can't things in life be simple and easy...well because someone fucking hates us...I don't believe in god (have nothing against those who do, or believe in other religions, my best friend is christian) I don't believe in fate, or coincidence or anything like that, I believe that shit just happens...and shit IS happening right now and its making me so pissed off and depressed. Is this all life is about? suffering? sure there are some awesome parts in life...in fact amazing things, but sometimes the bad rules out the good and blocks it from your sight, and you can never see it, ever...thats how i feel right now...I try and hold onto the good, but its never enough!!! I could go on more but I risk making myself even more depressed...and I really have had enough of that today. Sorry for burdening anyone who reads this with this message, but I needed to get it out of my system...